I’m a typical Asian girl with a pretty messed up life. Or maybe I’m not typical. You see, I hate math. I thrive in the world of Humanities. I love history, ethics, philosophy — you name it. I also love to write. But just because I love something doesn’t mean I’m actually good at it…
Yea. I’m a terrible writer.
It’s a fact. I don’t need encouragement — I’m a terrible writer and I semi-proudly accept it. So… what am I doing on this sophisticated Wattpad blog site? Honestly, I don’t know. About 35 minutes ago, my mom sat on my bed and told me to try blogging for a bit. I’m hesitant because ‘blogging’ sounds like ‘vlogging’ and vlogging is so Youtube-y and I don’t want to be living in the same bubble as James Charles (or whoever is known for vlogging on Youtube). Stupid reasoning, right? Well concerns aside, here I am. I’m a terrible writer on a blogging website. My point is, take it easy on me. Don’t expect impressive writing or fancy vocabulary or anything your English teacher would give an A on. I want to just spill my thoughts as they are. So I will. It’s scary though. I hate giving people the power to know what’s happening in my brain or how I feel or my emotions in general, but maybe it’s about time I start sharing those things. To millions of random people. On the internet. Awesome. I digress.
So, why did my mom recommend blogging in the first place? Well, a few days ago I posted 15 tiktoks of me talking on 3x speed about random topics and controversial ideas that no one cares about. I’m talking about Kumari, the aeronautical industry before WWII, corruption in the pharmaceutical industry, history of the Kayan people, America being stupid, what to do if you cut your arm while stranded in the Amazon — you get the point. Instead of bombarding the 22 followers on my tiktok with “useless” (I’d argue against) information, my mom thought I should share those thoughts here where people will actually (hopefully) care.
But will people care? Will people want to read stories from a depressed, ADHD, Asian girl (don’t forget, I’m a terrible writer)? I don’t know. At this point in my life, to be completely honest, I kind of hate everything and everyone, so I’m bueno (yep, I take Spanish) if you don’t like me. But maybe you need a break from reading scholarly, impressive writing from Ivy-bound students.
So here I am. I don’t know how long this will last or if I will continue blogging. Either way,
I just wanted to say hi.